Even though I was a Christian I was not bearing good fruit. I was not shining His light because I was marred by the pain in my heart and mind. I was so desperate to be set free from the past so I could spread His love, but I didn’t know how.
The negative thoughts in my head made me feel like I was spinning out of control.
My lack of self-worth made me dependent on other people to fill the void I had inside.
I desperately wanted to be loved, but the more I tried, the more they pulled away.
The pain hurt so much that eventually I closed off and put walls up so I could protect my heart.
But I secretly wished someone would break through them and show me I was loved.
I was REALLY good at putting on an act that everything was fine….
I put a smile on my face
I tried to have a positive attitude because everyone else seemed so happy
I didn’t want to be a burden so I pretended everything was fine.
But I desperately wanted the brokenness to be healed.
They were seeing amazing shifts and transformation in their lives!